Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Going so soon


Aaron and I discussed this morning how we will be moving sooner than planned. I thought I had at least 2 more months here, but it looks like only 4 more weeks until we are heading down South to Florida. There is so much to do between now and then, and it's extra hard since Aaron is already down there and I am doing all the packing and planning solo (well, hardly solo with these kids crawling all over me). Do we buy a house? Do we rent and then buy? How do we move everything? Is everything going to get done before I leave? There are so many questions and I feel so few answers coming my way.

Aaron asked me if I could call a friend to help with some of my workload, or at least watch the kids. I told him I am out of friends right now because they have either moved, have enough young kiddos to keep them busy without my drama added, recently had a baby, or are preggo. ALL of them. And of course, I can't hold that against them:) But it has been so hard because I really am feeling all alone. And frankly, I don't want to be a burden on anyone's already full life.

Last year all my girls would go and do things spontaneously. There was that email in the morning that said, "hey--I'm going to go do so and so, anyone wanna come along?" I couldn't always be there due to work, of course, but it seemed like the "doing" was always happening. Now new babies have and are being born, and of course I love that more than I can express! However, it makes getting together or having time for each other extra hard. I just wish I could experience a moment of togetherness again before I go. A glimpse of how moments between friends are supposed to be, even if children are crawling all over the place. But things change, and even if they are for the better, I will still miss the amazing women I am leaving behind.

I am also feeling so sad about leaving all my photography clients. I love them! Once I photograph someone, I just feel so connected because I have given part of me to them through the photos I take. I feel like I have captured who they really are, and somehow that means I've become a part of their life. I hate to lose that. I really hate to lose that. I called a photographer gal today who has a similar style to mine and asked her if I could refer my clients her way. She of course said yes and thank you, but I felt a twinge of jealousy that they would no longer be mine.

My life for the past 3 years is about to change forever.

Sometimes it's just so hard to let go...

12 comments:

Tara said...

Amen!

Jessie said...

Well....if it makes you feel any better we are excited to have you guys back down in the south with us again!! Even though you are in another state maybe we can see you guys more often now!!!

Just the Three of Us said...

Carrie...I've had a baby but I'm still here. I know I'm no Cortney but I'm more then willing to help youout. Bring Kai over some time and Payton and him can play for awhile. Brianna will be at school so you could at least get something done kid free. Plus I'm trying to get us all together this week. Rachel wants to come and see everyone and I'm dieing to get back together. Please let me help! 4 weeks it sooo short and we have to enjoy it while it's here. Don't stress and know that we'll be there to help...babies don't make us nonexistent...just busier. Lovs!

Jana Heller said...

well i guess you don't think of me as one of your friends because i am neither pregnant, have a new baby and i still live here. well i will still help if you need it.

rowdystroudy said...

Jana-- Did you miss that one sentence made especially for you?? :)

Jana Heller said...

i guess i did miss that one. i guess i am a little sensitive. i can still help.

Katie said...

I am sorry you are having a hard time, but you will be 3 hours away from Grover and I now :D And we are going to get together!!!

Rachel said...

I'm so sad that you all are moving! :( I was hoping to get to spend more time with you all. So fine...leave!:) Erik should be back by next week hopefully. Although we hadn't planned on staying apart this long as it is. Is Aaron coming to help you move or are you really do that on your own? If he's not coming I am soooo sorry! Moving stinks but let your friends help. I'd bet they would love to help you! Good luck with everything.

J said...

WHOA, sounds like a lot of work...If I lived in Washington I would be at your door right now helping you! What is your Washington mailing address? Will you E-mail it to me please? Thanks!

Kristie and Ryan said...

Carrie, please know you can use me whenever convenient. I am out of the way, but totally willing to help out, or hang out, whenever you feel it necessary or have the time (respectively). I love you so much and am going to miss you terribly!

p.s. Please forget the maternity photo shoot, you simply don't have time for it. I'm a heifer anyway. :)

Cortney said...

Carrie, take a deep breath and relax. Things will work out. You know that. And please know that we do want to help--the last time I tried you wouldn't let me. And if you can find time in all the packing and final photo shoots, etc., you know that we would all love to spend some quality time with you before you leave.

Kristen said...

I can totally watch your kids anytime you need a break or extra time for packing. Ty would love to hang out with older kids and I don't have anything else going on. Call me whenever!

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