Why did it happen to US?
First off, please don't think I feel we have greater challenges than anyone else. Please don't think that I am lamenting because I want people to feel sorry for us. EVERYONE has problems, pain, fears. Everyone has challenges, some very serious challenges!, most FAR worse than ours. This is just our personal one, and with any obstacle, support from those we love is always welcomed!
He helps me forget about the rain.
- 1 month of his medication costs $3,000. He takes a shot every.single.day.
- His arm is numb all the time. He doesn't tell me, but I know it is.
- If there is too much stress, his body shuts down. If he doesn't get enough sleep, his body shuts down. If he travels too much without rest, his body shuts down.
- Sometimes I feel FEAR. Fear for that moment again. That moment when the worst happened. That moment when my husband was taken away from me. That sadness. That survival that we all had to endure. That composure we had to retain for our children. That. I hated THAT. Multiple Sclerosis is real. It's real for us... too real.
But I will walk for him.
Because of the fact that:
- He is well right now. He can walk. He can still recover when this physical tragedy entails... and we know that it probably will again.
- Prayers are answered. We have been alone, in the darkness, in that pit of despair, and our Heavenly Father and Savior have lifted us up. Your prayers, have been answered FOR US. We have been supported by our loved ones and so many others. Thank you.
- We are not the only ones fighting. Millions are faced with the same uncertainty...the same fate...the same daily fear. We are grateful for that knowledge. Knowing we are not alone in this battle. It makes us stronger.
- Research is being done every day to understand this disease and find a cure. The MS society is a beacon of light that we can come to. A place where we can find answers and support. Good gosh, remember when they sent us to Hawaii? (Our first year with MS was almost unbearable. Our dream trip was so welcome to the fatigue we all felt.)
- Husband says Fear is the opposite of Faith. (I'm working on it!)
- I understand now. Years ago it was almost incomprehensible to understand what it must have been like for the Savior when he atoned for us. To feel that wrenching pain. Some moments, I know, that I feel what he has felt for us. He has been here. And always will be. That glimpse -- I will forever be grateful for.
Please walk with me.
I am walking for my husband.
Today, I see my blue sky.
a couple things you can do if you want to help: