Thursday, February 16, 2012

A burger joint and an epiphany



There was a moment after a photo session last Saturday when I realized that it was totally okay to stop and get myself a burger and fries.  I thought holy cow--this moment--the one where I can stop and go as I please isn't very normal--and yet it IS MY NORMAL now that my kids are older.  They are fine with their dad, I don't have to run home to breastfeed, and I got a good night's sleep so I am completely alert.  I recognized that even though I wished I WAS the one who had to run home to breastfeed or that I was completely incoherant from getting no sleep with a waking baby--I would appreciate this moment in time.  I could take an extra hour to grab a bite of food and peruse the record store and enjoy what Seattle has to offer alone if I wanted. It wasn't as though I pretended I wasn't a mother anymore.  It was that once your children grow a bit, you do have a tiny bit more freedom. They don't need you every waking minute and can amuse themselves much easier and were totally fine without me for an extra hour. I didn't have to rush. It was this weird awakening of my spirit and it was so bittersweet.  And after that chocolate shake--I knew that right now it is okay to be sweet.


6 comments:

Jeanelle said...

Yum! Although I don't love their fries their burgers are so dang good. Sometimes we sneak out of work and get a cupcake at Trophy and a burger at Dick's. That's a good day right there...

Ashley {hudson's happenings} said...

I know exactly what kind of moment you are talking about...they have a way of making you feel happy and strange and free and sad all at once, huh?

NOW I want a chocolate shake. ;)

likeschocolate said...

Your making me hungry! I love Dick fries! So yummy!

Sue said...

Making my mouth water over here....

=)

Alli Blue said...

Looks like heaven. Literally.

Charlotte said...

I remember when I came to the same conclusion. It was like a huge weight was suddenly lifted. I love having a little more freedom to just be by myself sometimes.

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