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Yesterday I was released from a calling at church (a volunteer position) where I taught the Relief Society (a women's organization). I taught 1x a month and I LOVED it. It was the perfect calling in my life right now where I don't have to prepare a lesson every week and I can go to the adult classes with no other weekly job to do. I could sit and enjoy every Sunday, comment in class when I wanted to, and have zero other responsibility except for 1x a month. And during that one Sunday, I was filled with gratitude to have the privilege to teach and learn and grow in that one hour. Sometimes I felt jumbled in my presentation, but overall I felt like it was received well by the women attending and I always received an encouraging response and a simple feeling of joy.
And yet--I was asked to leave that ideal calling to be the Primary Music Leader (the chorister in our children's group). It was a calling I have done a zillion times before. There is nothing wrong with the calling, but I was NOT happy about it.
I was a little ticked off, actually. Why did I have to leave something so perfect for me?
Yesterday when the news was announced I was in awe of how so many women were SAD that I would no longer be teaching. I received so many compliments about my efforts and how I will be missed. The Relief Society President even used the word "heartbroken" in class. It made me feel so loved and surprised at such a response and valued. I tried hard not to be sad about going elsewhere, but I just WAS.
And then--as if an answer to a prayer--I was reminded how this is the last year that my daughter would be attending Primary and how I would now have the opportunity to be a part of that with her. It surprised me--that I hadn't thought about that before--and what a blessing that will be to me and hopefully to her.
She is growing up so fast! I try so hard to remember her as a little girl, but that almost seems impossible because she has grown into such a lovely young lady and how can I see anything else?
There are moments I don't want to miss because I am already missing so many. They are both in school all day, I work, and the business of life often takes precedence over quality moments with my kids. Time is fleeting and unlike before, I can thankfully now be a part of their life for two short extra hours every Sunday.