Monday, July 11, 2011

I'll see you soon



I really don't know how to begin this and well, I hope I can find the right words. They are certainly not making much sense in my head right now.  But rather than not post for awhile, I feel that it would be nice to explain;)

Basically, I think I should take a blogger break.  I am completely uninspired, and therefore uninspiring, and I think it shows.  I have said often that my blog is my journal, which it is, but somehow recently I have felt that it is being written less for me and more for what I think others might want.  It's the beauty of the blog world, really.  To share oneself with those we know and those we don't and receive such beautiful feedback because of it. It has been rewarding and fulfilling and inspiring to say the least, and yet...I have wondered...if I am sharing the best and worst parts of me for the right reasons.

The worst thing that I could do for myself and for you is to forcefully and absentmindedly hit the publish button.  Quantity does not mean quality, and I feel that my quality lacks.  My heart is stretched in so many different directions right now that I keep wondering if something has to give.  When my go-to for stress relief has become a stress in itself, perhaps, I should take a breath and regain my composure.

I worry that I will lose some readers (which I probably will).  I worry that I will lose a very important daily and creative outlet in my life (which I will). But I worry more about my family and my spirit and why I feel that I have to prove something--that I am talented, or quick witted, or a frequent blog commenter--when I should really be showing that my life matters. That I am completely me. One who does not feel empty.

I feel so silly.  Like I am moving away or something.  It is likely that this break will be short lived.  And maybe in a week or so I will regain my blog spirit and the quality I so desire to remember and give will return.  But for now, I ache.  I am really tired.  I can't control how many hours are in a day, but I can control how they are filled.  And right now, that needs to be my focus.

So for now....I will simply say...



I'll see you soon.


11 comments:

Amy said...

Carrie, you are wonderful. I love your reasons for taking a step back. I hope your heart can figure things out and your stress can diminish soon, as I will miss you. But take care of you and your family first. I will be here when you come back. Hopefully it will be soon, but if not, no worries. Just fix what needs to be fixed and everything else will fall into place.

Regina said...

It is not for your well-designed posts that I love your blog. It is for its personality. It is because of you being you. Even a break you need is totally you (I know many bloggers who reach this point). I hope you´d find back the love to stay in contact with your readers as .......totally you.

Dearest greetings from Lehrte near Hannover in Germany

Regina

Darren and Brandi said...

Oh don't you worry Carrie, I doubt you will really lose readers. We'll be back as soon as you are because we all enjoy what you have to say so much (even if you don't feel inspired when you're writing it)! Enjoy your break and hope to hear from you soon!

Patty Ann said...

Carrie, you sound like me sometimes. I now plan for easy things for some days, and, if I don't post or read everyday, that is going to be fine too. I have found that setting limits and guidelines always helps. I also tend to carry a pad a paper everywhere and look for inspiration. But I also believe that sometimes we all need a short break. Everyone needs a vacation once in a while. I think it helps me to be more creative instead of less. I hope you find the things that brought you to this place in the beginning. That when you come back, your soul and heart are filled and ready to share.

Kelsey said...

See you soon! I took a month break in April/May and came back better with tons of new ideas and inspiration. I closed my ETSY shop and all! It was exactly what I needed! (and I didn't loose any followers)

Sometimes we just go through phases :)

Hope to see you back soon with new inspiration!

Chocolate on my Cranium said...

Change - even if it is a break for a while - is a very good thing! Enjoy spending time with your family. Of course, you'll be missed, but we know you are doing that which is most important.

Amy said...

You are a darling. Your priorities are exactly where they should be and I admire the heck out of that. As long as we can still be facebook pals, i'm good. :)
take care. And you don't have to prove anything. You ARE talented, beautiful, witty, funny, and just plain cool. Remember that always.

Sue said...

We all need to take a break now and then. Enjoy yours! And we will be waiting for you when you get back...

=)

linda said...

I understand where you're coming from and stepping back to catch your breath (& realign your vision) is a good thing, even if it's not always easy. I have you in my feedreader so I'll see you when you return! Praying you get the rest and perspective you need.

AJ said...

I was reading some of your old posts tonight and laughing so hard my sides hurt.

I will miss you but I will be here when you are ready to come back. Relax and enjoy your break!

Christina said...

Please come back soon, but in the mean time enjoy the break. We all need one every now and again. No readers lost here!

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