I wanted to cry last night. I had pinched a nerve first in my neck and then in my lower back and it was seriously complete agony. And I was crampy.
Then I said 2 things. "Spike is whining because I forgot to buy the dog food. Do you think he can survive on bread another night? I mean, is he going to starve to death?" And then right after... "You know what I haven't had in forever? Mint chocolate chip ice cream. That has to be some kind of sin to go without it for so long."
Rowdy looked at me and then asked, "Does that mean you want me to go the store and get it for you? I'm really tired..." I didn't like his attitude so I sad "NO!"
Then I wanted to cry again because I hurt so bad. I needed a heating pad and I didn't have one and gosh darn it I was going to have to do everything myself.
So without anyone knowing I grabbed my purse and keys and stomped out of there with pain in every step. I had blue sweats with a t-shirt on and my long brown puffy coat and flip-flops. As I sat in the car about to turn the ignition on I got a call from Rowdy that I should just come home and how was I going to lift that big bag of dog food? I hung up on him. Then I got a call from Kai saying, "Mommy please come home! I miss you!" with a shuffle and then a "there dad I said it!" and it hung up.
But I started the car up anyway and zoomed out of there. I got about a block before I had to stop from the pain. I really didn't have any idea how I was going to lift a huge bag of dog food. So I pulled the car back in and marched back inside and kicked off my flip-flops in complete agony and began pouring rice into a sock to make into a homemade heating pad.
Basically, the night sucked. It's funny how pain can make you do crazy things. I was feeling like quite the witch.
Hopefully today I will be nice and a bit more sane even though the pain is still excruciating. I just need to focus on the sun and the gorgeous changing colors and remember that pain is usually temporary and that I can push through it.
And one more thing...I think mint chocolate chip ice cream could heal the world.